little sugar pumpkin face

12:46 am - Oblivion Bear

He seems to forget all his past. :(

December 22nd, 2009

09:56 am - Like What's On My Mind...
A
Available: No, you see, there’s this boy…
Age: 26
Annoyance: Humidity, rush hour traffic, bumper stickers, indecisiveness.
Allergies: Olives.
Animal: Penguins.
Actor: John Cusack is love. Actress always is the loveliest of lovely, Audrey Hepburn.

B
Beer: Stella Artois.
Birthday/Birthplace: May 22, Independence
Best Friends: Mel and Am.
Body part on opposite sex: Hands and eyes.
Best feeling in the world: Butterflies.
Blind or Deaf: Blind. Scott insists I’m crazy.
Best weather: Autumn in Kansas City, spring in San Francisco.
Been in Love: Absolutely!
Been bitched out?: Countless times.
Been on stage?: Yup, over the weekend was the last time.
Believe in yourself?: If I don’t believe in myself, why should anyone else?
Believe in life on other planets: I honestly don’t know. Don’t think about it.
Believe in miracles: There is no other way to explain some things.
Believe in Magic: I believe in illusion.
Believe in God: Yes, absolutely, without a doubt.
Believe in Satan: See above, unfortunately.
Believe in Santa: No, haven’t since I was four.
Believe in Ghosts/Spirits: Yup.
Believe in Evolution: In a sense, but I believe in creationism.

C
Car: Fusion.
Candy: I love red vines. They remind me of my boyfriend.
Color: Red.
Cried in school: Only once, after a bad breakup.
Chocolate/Vanilla: Vanilla.
Chinese/Mexican: Both, please.
Cake or pie: Cupcakes.
Countries to visit: There are a lot, but most notably Fiji, Ireland and New Zealand.

D
Day or Night: I’m good with either.
Dream vehicle: Mercedes S-class convertible.
Danced: All the time.
Dance in the rain?: Scott and I recently waltzed in the rain.
Dance in the middle of the street?: See above.
Do the splits?: Not anymore. ;)

E
Eggs: Scrambled or over medium.
Eyes: Dark brown.
Everyone has: a reason to believe.
Ever failed a class?: No.

F
First crush: Taylor.
First thoughts waking up: Man, I miss him.
Food: Peanut butter.

G
Greatest Fear: Heights.
Giver or taker: I can rock a nice mix of both..
Goals: To be a good partner to Scott, do something I love, and change someone’s life.
Gum: Five gum, the blue or green kind.
Get along with your parents?: Mostly.
Good luck charms: I don’t believe in luck.

H
Hair Colour: Brown with red right now. It changes.
Height: 5'1
Happy: A vast majority of the time.
Holidays: Christmas Eve.
How do you want to die: In my sleep.
Health freak?: Nope.
Hate: Waiting and traffic. Or waiting in traffic.

I
(In guys/girls)
Eye Color: Brown now…it really doesn’t matter.
Hair Color: Anything that’s not red.
Height: Tall. I like tall boys, but tall is a relative term when you’re 5’1.
Clothing Style: Preppy with just a little flair of rocker.
Characteristics: Intellectual, sarcastic, passionate, determined, loyal.
Ice Cream: Peanut butter chocolate.
Instrument: Piano.

J
Jewelry: Very much part of my ensemble and often centers around white gold and diamonds.
Job: I have one.

K
Kids: We will.
Kickboxing or karate: Kickboxing!!!
Keep a journal?: Nope.

L
Longest Car Ride: New York to Seattle with Afen.
Love: Scott, my family, music.
Letter: B
Laughed so hard you cried: Sunday.
Love at first sight: Kind of.

M
Milk flavor: Chocolate skim.
Movie: High Fidelity.
Mooned anyone?: No.
Marriage: Yup.
Motion sickness?: I can’t read in a car.
McD's or BK: Neither.

N
Number of Siblings: Dos.
Number of Piercings: Ears three times.
Number: 21

O
Overused Phrases: Crazy amazing.
One wish: Strength for Amanda.
One phobia: Mice.

P
Place you'd like to live: BOSTON.
Pepsi/Coke: Diet Coke.

Q
Quail: Didn’t care for it.
Questionnaires: Good waste of time.

R
Reason to cry: Hormones.
Reality T.V.: Rachel Zoe Project is totally my guilty pleasure.
Radio Station: The Buzz, of course!
Roll your tongue in a circle?: Yes.

S
Song: Top three: "Good Feeling” by the Violent Femmes; “Nobody Knows Me” by Lyle Lovett and “So Impossible” by Dashboard Confessional.
Shoe size: 5, tiny feet.
Sushi: YUM.
Skipped school: Yup..
Slept outside: Yes.
Seen a dead body?: Yes.
Skinny dipped?: Yes.
Shower daily?: Yes.
Sing well?: Eh….
In the shower?: I don’t know and I don’t care. I’m gonna sing anyhow.
Swear?: I do, but I really try not to.
Stuffed Animals?: My white bear from my daddy.
Single/Group dates: Both have their place and time.
Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberries.
Scientists need to invent: All kinds of cures.

T
Time for bed: Between ten and eleven usually.
Thunderstorms: are crazy amazing most of the time.
Touch your tongue to your nose? Yes.

U
Unpredictable: Not really.
Under the influence?: Haven’t been for a month or so.
Understanding?: I try hard to be, but I could work on it..

V
Vegetable you hate: PEPPERS.
Vegetable you love: Spinach.
Vacation spot: France, I was spoiled as a child.

W
Weakness: Impatience.
When you grow up: I want to be a mommy and a wife.
Which one of your friends acts the most like you: None, we are all pretty different.
Who makes you laugh the most: Mase.
Worst feeling: Letting someone else down.
Wanted to be a role model?: I’m happy with who I am. If someone else likes that, then cool.
Where do we go when we die: Heaven or hell.
Worst weather: Freezing rain.
Walk with a book on your head?: Yes.

X
X-Rays: Yes.

Y
Year it is now: 2009
Yellow: is cheerful.

Z
Zoo animal: Penguins and polar bears.
Zodiac sign: Gemini

Open your playlist, pick songs that start with each letter of your username, but the songs have to mean something to you. Don't just pick a song because it starts with a letter in your username. Post the list to your journal, if you want you can explain why the songs are important to you, but it's not required.

I’m using the one on my iPhone, so it’s kind of limited.

Good Feeling – Violent Femmes: My favorite song in the whole world.
Rag Doll – Aerosmith: Reminds me of my dad and an inside joke with us.
Are You Beautiful – Chris Pierce: Just a beautiful song.
Collide – Howie Day: The soundtrack to a moment with Scott.
Everlong – Foo Fighters: Dave Grohl. ‘Nuff said.
Pale Blue Eyes – The Velvet Underground: Love the lyrics to this song.
Ocean Wide – The Afters: Gives me so much hope and reminds me of all that I have.
Emaline – Ben Folds: Reminds me of this boy I used to love.
Tech Romance – Her Space Holiday: One of the first songs I taught Scott about.
I Look So Good (Without You) – Jessie James: Perfect song for a summer breakup.
Chocolate – Snow Patrol: Always puts me in a good mood.
Current Mood:

working
Current Music: "Spotlight" - Mutemath

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turnip_bit_me

02:54 am - i'm obviously back in bakersfield because i have internet and am vent on lj:)
oh jesus,

what is it with people and formalities?

"i demand respect yet i don't act respectfully in any sense of the word!"

espeacially the ones who don't understand or deserve them?

why take yourself so seriously...
you don't even respect yourself or anyone else.

THERE IS AN URGENCY TO LIFE, WHY DOESN'T ANYOKNE SEEM TO UNDERSTAND THIS?

06:41 pm - I Felt the World Begin...
One of the things I have been wanting to do recently was track the soundtrack to my day. I did that some time ago when I kept a list of all the songs that I listened to throughout the day. With today’s entry, I wanted to share twelve hours of music. This is what I was listening to, where I heard it and what I was doing when my life was graced with such magical musical goodness.

6:02 a.m.
At the Gym via iPod Shuffle
Pass the Mic – Beastie Boys

7:32 a.m.
At Home Getting Ready via iHome
At My Most Beautiful – REM

8:14 a.m.
In the Car Driving via 96.5 the Buzz
The Ring Song - The Bravery

9:21 a.m.
Sorting Mail via XM/Sirius 90s on 9
Doo Wop (That Thing) – Lauryn Hill

10:41 a.m.
Editing Photo via 96.5 the Buzz
All Over the World – The Pixies

11:06 a.m.
Graphic Design via Slacker Indie Chill
Start a War – The National

12:37 p.m.
Eating Lunch via Slacker iPhone App
Start Today Tomorrow – Youth Group

1:29 p.m.
Graphic Design via CD
Gardenia – Mandy Moore

2:17 p.m.
Writing via last.fm
That For You – Matt Wertz

3:40 p.m.
Editing Radio Spots via Pandora Beach Boys
Because – The Dave Clark Five

4:21 p.m.
Editing Photos via Pandora Beach Boys
My Girl – The Temptations

5:08 p.m.
Driving Home via 96.5 the Buzz
Ain't No Rest for the Wicked – Cage the Elephant

6:14 p.m.
Cooking Dinner via iHome
Lola – The Kinks

Current Mood:

busy
Current Music: "Starstruck" - Santigold

Tags: life happens, soundtrack to my life

03:37 pm
the tragedy of today is that i have to live without the wisdom of tomorrow and the tragedy of tomorrow is that when it comes i will feel the same as today

01:33 am - Heaven's Door

The dome of San Bartolome Parish here in Malabon City, Philippines, designed by the incumbent parish priest, Rev. Fr. Ricardo Torrefiel.

01:29 am - Stop and Go

This was taken in front of the San Bartolome Parish's Patio. ^^,

01:21 am - Flaming Solace

I just took that shot today. I love how the fire dances with the wind. ^^,

December 20th, 2009

12:32 pm
i hunt the seconds in a moment
the future is death
pulling back the bow of hope
stretching like wounded muscle
the tendons pop
leaving me defenseless
like the instant of birth
the years of prey pass me
i'll eventually get the kill
but the vultures of eons
who feat on all
are as merciless as the motion
we are powerless to hault
as the arrow flies forward
hit's it's mark
and stops the heart
in mid beat
stopping a grain of thought
that was as meaningless
as anything
in this endless desert of time

12:30 pm - existential excrement
i flush the asteroid
watch it all sprial down the black hole
deep into the darkness
outside the jurisdiction of time
floating along the canals of eons
into the resovoir of dreams
where all hope goes to die
it's light swallow by the void
of this absurd universe
and i wipe my ass
with the so called tomes of wisdom
their pages, drifting pulp
cloging the skyline
so we cannot see the stars
that tell us it's all a load of shit

12:19 am - OC-ness
Hindi ko pa rin matanggap na sa tuwing kakanta ako gn "Kordero ng Diyos", yung nakalaga na lyric ay

"Kordero ng Diyos na nag-aalis ng mga kasalanan SA MUNDO."

Ang salitang "SA" sa English ay nangangahulugang " TO". Eh sa pagkakaalam ko, yung translation niya ay

"Lamb of God who takes away the sins OF THE WORLD."

Nakakaloko lang. Dapat.. "Kordero ng Diyos na nag-aalis ng mga kasalanan NG MUNDO."

Wula lang. ^^,

December 18th, 2009

09:16 pm - down in the dumps
every night when i go off to sleep
i lay down in my bed,
and then i reach over to pull the chain
on my lamp, i flush out all the light
a woosh of darkness overtakes me
i awake to the bluest of blue waters
then i rain down golden sunshine
in a shower of hope and promise
and the vast green sheet
is a sea of grass
fertilized by the corpses of yesterday
life blooms anew
each and every morning

07:16 pm - And Talks Over the Sound...
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
- Bran
- Branflakes
- Princess

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- I can find the perfect song for any moment.
- My capacity to love.
- I'm really awesome at writing.

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- Bad eating habits.
- Impatience.
- Cynicism.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
- Irish
- French
- Navajo

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
- Heights.
- Mice.
- Losing people I love.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
- Prayer.
- iPhone.
- Music.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
- Black yoga pants.
- Black wife beater.
- White hoodie.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
- Violent Femmes.
- Dashboard Confessional.
- Jack's Mannequin.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE ALBUMS:
- Swiss Army Romance | Dashboard Confessional
- (500) Days of Summer | Various
- Wild Hope | Mandy Moore

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
- My least favorite food is all kinds of peppers.
- I love "Two and a Half Men."
- The last thing I bought was sushi.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
- Setting a health plan and sticking to it.
- Reading the Bible every day.a
- Cooking everything in the Top Chef cookbook.

THREE THINGS YOU NEED IN A RELATIONSHIP:
- Laughter.
- Honesty.
- Butterflies.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
- Play baseball.
- Stay away during movies longer than two hours.
- Make peanut butter cookies.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
- Cooking.
- Writing.
- Listening to music.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
- Go to San Francisco.
- Figure out w hat I want to do with my life.
- See Amanda.

THREE JOBS YOU'D CONSIDER DOING OTHER THAN THE ONE YOU HAVE:
- Mommy.
- Novelist.
- PA.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
- Fiji.
- Ireland.
- New Zealand.

THREE KID'S NAMES:
- Veruca.
- Sophie Roux.
- Carly June.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
- Ride in a hot air balloon.
- Go to Fiji.
- Raise a family.
Current Mood:

relaxed
Current Music: "Back Against the Wall" - Cage the Elephant

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December 17th, 2009

12:51 pm
there is a space between my bricks that no mason can fill

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December 15th, 2009

11:29 pm - i went food shopping for my new diet
i got 10 pounds of frozen mixed veggies, 25 dried pounds of pinto beans, 8lbs of boneless chicken breast, 10lbs of brown rice 5 lbs of salsa, 8 litres of flavored seltzer water, 10lbs of brown rice, 2lbs of red delicous apples, 5 lbs of oranges, 2lbs of raw oats and whole grain tortillas

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11:34 pm - Should I?
It was a lot of fun to attend Simbang Gabis not only because you get to enjoy the philosophies entering in your head through the priest's sermon in your most active mode but also because of the lovely site the (yeah, well I got to admit) sacristans give you whenever they're around. Although this has been quite common already because it has one of the most constant things ever happening to me, it still has its thrills.

But what bothered me is when the mass ended, our parish priest called on nine families to be the reciepients of the 9-night Christmas meals. Then, my best friend brought up this issue about the Reproductive Health Bill when she has observed the number of the members of the family.

I got her point instantly. It's not I'm against giving on the Yuletide season; it's that I'm after for more good effects for the citizens. Face it; when people are educated, they already have the tool-- that is, the information-- and they already have the option if they should do it or not.

It's not there's wrong with feeding these families; it's just that this wouldn't last forever. These nine days would eventually pass. What would they eat after Christmas? I know it was the Catholic Church who first educated me about not giving fishes to the people, instead teaching them how to fish. I'm after the more permanent effects. I'm after a complete reform and not just a mere makeshift.

If we inculcate something vital such as family planning for most less-educated families of this country, I think it would be a more help for them rather than these bits of help. I wish the Catholic Church would just open their minds more about such issue.

Now, should I be happy with the makeshift they have provided? Or should I rather be angry because of their narrow minds about the RH Bill?

Perhaps, it happens simultaneously. It makes me exasperated.
Current Mood:

annoyed

loventransition

06:25 pm - Of Love.
A year and 3 months yesterday.

December 14th, 2009

08:46 pm - World's Turning Upside-down
I never thought this would actually happen.

Last time I checked myself, I am still a linguist who unconditionally loves her subject and doesn't care for the others. But now-- what's this emotion-- this emotion of suddenly caring for this number-relationship subject. My dear friends, I hate to say this but I think I am in love with Math.

I think I am in love with its simple complexities. I think I am in love on the way it whips my brain, to the point I want to die because of a very low grade in a quiz.

Why the sudden feeling of care-- of concern for this long-time loathed subject? A while ago, I was like Okay, you won. I lost, as if I am pertaining to someone whom I challenged to a race at the end of this journey.

And I think I am starting to get its metaphor. Yeah, this pride wouldn't get me anywhere. So, I say it again...

"Okay, you won. I lost."

... Now, what do you want?

December 12th, 2009

04:30 pm - Be Sure to Wear Some Flowers in Your Hair...
Six months later, and I've never been happier.
Current Mood:

loved
Current Music: "Still Ray" - Raphael Saadiq

Tags: love, scott

11:45 pm - Spontaneity, Evasion, Voyeurism, et al

Rushed words I just extemporaneously made
Ticks and tacks of the keyboard pound reverberate
Procrastination seems on its ninth month
But no, honestly, it’s not like that.

The truth is I just want to throw off this dead site
And be in another world’s light
Bury all the pathetic parodies you’ve read
Make its creator’s skin shed

Inject another apathy medication,
To subvert the familiar erstwhile-flame paragon
Or probably quaff that dream liquid
And make your next strawberry-field encounter placid

Current Mood:

cranky

Tags: escapism, literary, literary works, poem